Low maintenance

So December was a month with a load of work, hardly any time to rest, I couldn’t get a break. In came 2018, and only now when I have time to stop and breathe in and out… do my resolutions continue to be the same as the previous few years? Let’s see.

Well, last year I was able to finish off a debt relating to that last university course I took (and did only half of it), which was mainly my number one and only goal. So, for this year, I was thinking in one big goal which is… play the ukulele. I know, it seems so easy and trivial, but I’ve been postponing it for some time already and I’ve always wanted to play an instrument, I need to have a new hobbie in my life and it may also help me when I’m down and depressed. By the end of December I’ve watched this swell movie, Sing Street, by John Carney, and I’ve renewed the wish to include more music in my life.

I actually like the thought that I could live by the beach, have more coconut water and fish in my diet (which are very good for a diabetic diet), maybe open a place and sing to guests once in a while. This is actually my retirement thoughts, but… oh, I wish I could trade my current life.

Yeah, another goal for my life this year is to lower the glucose level in my blood, keep it stable – and that is only possible with a controlled diet and some physical exercises.

In my imagined reality with L, one of his friends would actually call me a low maintenance girl. Asked by a curious reporter or journalist, he would describe me as a “spiritual guide”, and that I have not many material attachments. Like I don’t care about brands, expensive cars or fashion items. I wouldn’t wear much jewelry, and I would prefer to live in a small place, which would be easier to clean up. I would wear simple, organic or recycled clothes, and I wouldn’t need many different clothes, accessories, I wouldn’t wear makeup and neither would I need hair products.

So it’s not like Leo would spend too much on me, however, he would have offered me enough so I didn’t need to work with whatever just for keeps, enough to live the rest of my (low maintenance) life, that is, an opportunity to finally be free to do what I really wanted. In turn, I would help out making him having a more fulfilling life, to be more content.

Yesterday I’ve just lent an amount to my parents, who seem to be always in debt. But it’s ok, this year I will wear simple clothes, study at home, exercise at home, learn how to play the uke by YouTube videos, eat more vegetables and fruits (less fast food and restaurants), and gather money for a trip. What else?

Come to think of it, I still got like 25 years before retirement… I mean I never wanted to live that much, but let’s say I’ve got about that. When I was 20 years-old, I was so sure, so certain of what I wanted to be, what I wanted to do. It’s very weird to now don’t know anything. I don’t know if I really want to be married and have kids. I’ve never wanted that, like many girls dream of. But I don’t know really what the next step is going to be. What can 2018 bring to me? Can I quit that job finally and move on to the next part of my life? Let’s stick with the ukulele for now.

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Hugh Hefner successor

L- Are you f*cking kidding me? What the hell…

D- Why not? Think about it. You love the supermodels, you got money, fame, prestige, power… hmmm what else?

L- Budies?

D- Yeah, your boys. They would actually love that. Fancy parties, closed parties. Like that journalist wrote about his experience in one of Hefner’s parties, journalists also would be invited.

L- C’mon, D.

D- What? You would be the perfect person for that.

L- Do you really think I’m like that?

D- Oh, why not. You’re a man, you’re alive, you’re just enjoying life, right?

L- Why do I have the feeling that you’re actually just trying to make a point?

D- What’s the point, Leo? What’s the point of dating one beautiful young girl after another? As human beings we just have to accept that all of us get old, sick, eventually die.

L- Do you think this is it? The desire to be young forever? Was that so for Hefner, is that so for me?

D- This is also part of the buddhist teachings, that’s all I’m saying. To understand the human condition. To be able to detach from certain things is to be free from the suffering these attachments may cause. It’s ok to get old.

L- Do you think that’s why I party? I just like parties, why is that a problem?

D- I’m not saying it’s a problem. You deserve to be happy. But some things in this world are just temporary joy, it doesn’t last. And I want you to find true happiness, the everlasting happiness. So even after the party, you don’t feel like crap. And even when you feel like crap, it’s ok. True happiness is find joy even in face of bad or challenging situations. But we will get back to that some other day.

Main characters

D- But you had done that. It’s called “Before the flood”

L- Really? And it would be exactly like that?

D- Well, pretty much similar, yeah.

L- And you would go to the far corners of the world… you would go to the North Pole?

D- Baby, I would go to the North, the South, anywhere with you… what do you think I am? I’m not one of these gals just to go along with to… oh, ok, probably I wouldn’t go partying with you, I wouldn’t do the club scene.

L- whoa. Ok. But, then… so it would be, huh?

D- that’s right. We would be great. And nobody in the world would have a clue. They all would think I was only an assistant… or a type of consultant, your guru.

L- wow, guru! Ok. You do realize that Kate has married 3 times?

D- so?

L- well, then… you could marry like… 2 times.

D- (smile) Right.

L- yeah, we can do that.

D- Ok. We can try that, and if it doesn’t work into the story for any reason, somehow, we can try something else.

L- right. So… when we meet, I mean, D and Lenny. Lenny Wills? Lenny Williams?

D- sure! I like that. Obviously we would have a much more compatible numerology, but… Lenny Williams is a very significant name, it’s like a wink. To your fans, to those who know your history.

L- how about her? What’s gonna be her name? D-what? You can’t use your real name.

D- how about Daisy? I like that. The flowers. I like this idea since “You’ve got mail”.

L- because I used to like Meg Ryan?

D- used to?

L- Daisy is good for me. For now.

Soulmates?

L- Why would we be soulmates?

D- Because we would do things together, and together we would do things that are good for this world. Have you ever heard of that saying, that we are spiritual beings having a human experience?

L- Do you believe in that?

D- I do. Why not? Why limit ourselves to thinking that we are here and that this all there is? Why can’t we imagine there is something so bigger and more vast than our little selves? That we can exist in another way, in another type of life? And if everything is really just this, here, then… well, there was no harm in imagining something else.

L- This is your story? Is this your story?

D- Two souls that meet in a cosmic space struggling to find each other in this physical world.

L- Well, if you think about it, “Your name” was sort of like that.

D- Yeah. But I had the idea way, waaay back. And, of course, it would be played differently.

L- Of course.