Hugh Hefner successor

L- Are you f*cking kidding me? What the hell…

D- Why not? Think about it. You love the supermodels, you got money, fame, prestige, power… hmmm what else?

L- Budies?

D- Yeah, your boys. They would actually love that. Fancy parties, closed parties. Like that journalist wrote about his experience in one of Hefner’s parties, journalists also would be invited.

L- C’mon, D.

D- What? You would be the perfect person for that.

L- Do you really think I’m like that?

D- Oh, why not. You’re a man, you’re alive, you’re just enjoying life, right?

L- Why do I have the feeling that you’re actually just trying to make a point?

D- What’s the point, Leo? What’s the point of dating one beautiful young girl after another? As human beings we just have to accept that all of us get old, sick, eventually die.

L- Do you think this is it? The desire to be young forever? Was that so for Hefner, is that so for me?

D- This is also part of the buddhist teachings, that’s all I’m saying. To understand the human condition. To be able to detach from certain things is to be free from the suffering these attachments may cause. It’s ok to get old.

L- Do you think that’s why I party? I just like parties, why is that a problem?

D- I’m not saying it’s a problem. You deserve to be happy. But some things in this world are just temporary joy, it doesn’t last. And I want you to find true happiness, the everlasting happiness. So even after the party, you don’t feel like crap. And even when you feel like crap, it’s ok. True happiness is find joy even in face of bad or challenging situations. But we will get back to that some other day.

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Main characters

D- But you had done that. It’s called “Before the flood”

L- Really? And it would be exactly like that?

D- Well, pretty much similar, yeah.

L- And you would go to the far corners of the world… you would go to the North Pole?

D- Baby, I would go to the North, the South, anywhere with you… what do you think I am? I’m not one of these gals just to go along with to… oh, ok, probably I wouldn’t go partying with you, I wouldn’t do the club scene.

L- whoa. Ok. But, then… so it would be, huh?

D- that’s right. We would be great. And nobody in the world would have a clue. They all would think I was only an assistant… or a type of consultant, your guru.

L- wow, guru! Ok. You do realize that Kate has married 3 times?

D- so?

L- well, then… you could marry like… 2 times.

D- (smile) Right.

L- yeah, we can do that.

D- Ok. We can try that, and if it doesn’t work into the story for any reason, somehow, we can try something else.

L- right. So… when we meet, I mean, D and Lenny. Lenny Wills? Lenny Williams?

D- sure! I like that. Obviously we would have a much more compatible numerology, but… Lenny Williams is a very significant name, it’s like a wink. To your fans, to those who know your history.

L- how about her? What’s gonna be her name? D-what? You can’t use your real name.

D- how about Daisy? I like that. The flowers. I like this idea since “You’ve got mail”.

L- because I used to like Meg Ryan?

D- used to?

L- Daisy is good for me. For now.

Soulmates?

L- Why would we be soulmates?

D- Because we would do things together, and together we would do things that are good for this world. Have you ever heard of that saying, that we are spiritual beings having a human experience?

L- Do you believe in that?

D- I do. Why not? Why limit ourselves to thinking that we are here and that this all there is? Why can’t we imagine there is something so bigger and more vast than our little selves? That we can exist in another way, in another type of life? And if everything is really just this, here, then… well, there was no harm in imagining something else.

L- This is your story? Is this your story?

D- Two souls that meet in a cosmic space struggling to find each other in this physical world.

L- Well, if you think about it, “Your name” was sort of like that.

D- Yeah. But I had the idea way, waaay back. And, of course, it would be played differently.

L- Of course.

Reach bottom to rise up

I didn’t want to feel like this. A few weeks ago I was again questioning myself. What is it that I want? I say I don’t want this job anymore, that I wanted to create nice stories and things that will inspire people, make people happier. This was the original dream. I gave up. Cause I don’t believe I’m ever going to accomplish it. I thought once I could do it. But perhaps I can’t. So what is left for me to do in this world?

“What do you want, D?”, I ask myself. And I always say “I don’t want anything”. Anymore.

So I know that I gotta wake up early tomorrow morning and forget about any of the dreams I once had or might still have and go on through the day, one more day, every day.

Well, some say that it’s when you reach the bottom that you can go up, because there is nowhere else to go. Perhaps this is the beginning. Again. When you start a new movement in your life. Not because you need to. But because you need to.