La la land

I’ve watched this movie and you know, I got more sad about it than I thought I would be (well, actually I didn’t expected to be sad, on the opposite, I thought I would be happy). 

The character of Emma Stone just reminded of myself when I was younger and had this dream of Hollywood. And then there is this moment when Ryan Gosling’s character says that we change and eventually we have to grow up. Mia ends up making the dream come true, but there is that musical sequence by the end that replays the whole story of the couple, this time as he wanted it to have played – and probably she did too – but reality was something else.

Right before her big break, Mia returns home in doubt, like “I guess this is not for me really, I have to find something else to do with my life”. She wonders that maybe she is just one of those people who never make it. 

Well, I’m one of these people. I’ve never made it. I’ve never wrote a real script, I’ve never made a movie. And of course we all have that moment you wish you’d play your life differently, but reality is not so, it was something else. 

How would I wanted to have it played? With L, sure. Wrote, traveled together, got married in white and had twins. I would have friends and love nature. The old story.

But the dream was but a dream.

Where is the love of my life who will prevent me from giving up? Who will dance with me in the star filled sky, make me like jazz and tap dance and fly?

I didn’t like this movie. Because it had so much to do with my life.