The movie for today is “Taxi” (2004). Yesterday I was reading about Gisele and Tom Brady, and they were commenting on how crazy their diet is, but I actually think this would be a perfect diet. I mean, for the past few years I have been reading a lot about food and all because of diabetes, and suddenly, once more, I have proof of how perfect Gisele is.
I mean, I already thought she was perfect when Leo got together with her back then and I resignated myself to forgetting about Leo because, oh well, he just got the perfect Brazilian. Then she moved on to marry and have two kids, while she makes these commercials for SKY and she can play a myriad of characters without ever having to had acting classes – just the fun part. Some people are just born with a shining star, no? I mean, this is a life I would like to have had. And on top of that, a healthy, the healthiest diet!
Then today that movie was on TV. Around the time for that shooting I guess she was still on and off Leo, sure I prefer Luc Besson, and she looks so skinny, but still seemed to have had a great deal of fun. And she is still the only girl to date that Leo has brought with him to an Academy Awards red carpet. And I remember that during the time of their relationship, I had read a few news here and there, it was so nice! Going to the Amazon – she is still a serious environmentalist (again, isn’t it just perfect, Leo?), and I totally get the idea of “Gisele and the green team”, haha.
Yeah, I know. Only a very few of the fewest privileged out there can be as perfect. And I’m not among them.
I know I can’t just stay home and eat all I like for the rest of my life. I gotta do something. I just wanted to have fun, but I’m not as lucky and perfect as Gisele. So I have missed many opportunities in my life and had to struggle a number of times with the choices I made. So, I gotta get up and do something out of my life now, and I don’t know what to do. And let’s face reality, I know that women for Leo is a blonde model or Victoria Secret angel, all the rest of the world do not exist for him, and I’m included in that rest of the world; I cannot just continue dreaming of him. Despite of all the dreams and sincere heartfelt scenes and encounters played somewhere in my mind’s universe.
So I didn’t do a bunch of things and it seems I keep repeating myself as for what I am going to do, while still stuck. Having always wanted to be the “chosen one” as in “Matrix” (2000), and having always preferred to say “I’m not the one”.
But… who is it that really said you’re not good enough? Who is the one that told you that you don’t deserve it?
Do we really need to be perfect? Have the perfect hair, the perfect family, the perfect career, the perfect diet? How many Giseles are out there, and what’s really wrong in not being one of them?
Why couldn’t Leo marry a short, dark-haired, sweet girl? Perhaps he would be even happier, who knows?